My lack of writing lately is due to lots of life changes but I feel like today I need to share the changes that are coming to my life.
First though, let me explain something. I am the queen of being afraid. I am afraid of the dark, the unknown, bugs, lightening, storms, thunder, failure, and the list goes on…and on…and on. I can’t handle scary things.
Halloween Horror Nights? Did it once and still have nightmares.
Scary movies? Last one I saw was when I was 17, so 8 years ago.
My mom loves to scare the crap out of me when I’m at home. Like she hides behind things to purposely scare me. I’m pretty sure I’ve jumped five feet in the air.
However, lately, I feel that fear is holding me back far too much. I’m afraid of leaving a job because I’m afraid of taking a risk. I’m afraid to be completely honest with someone for fear of them being mad.
Today, God reminded me that He has called me to live in truth and life, and not in fear. I am limiting my God when I am too scared to take risks.
So here I am, taking big risks. I won’t go into specific details but my life has been turned upside down because for once, I am taking risks.
Let’s be real.
I am terrified. Petrified. Shakin’ in my boots, hands tremblin’.
But I have God on my side.
“Be strong and courageous.”