There’s this song I used to listen to in high school.
The chorus goes, “Everybody scream your heart out.”
Essentially, it is the anthem to just let go. (Listen to full song here)
There’s a beauty in letting go, isn’t there?
Letting go of the doubt, insecurities, sadness, bitterness, anger, frustration, feelings.
It’s like a weight is lifted off your shoulders. I remember hearing this and singing it as loud as possible because even then, I wanted to let go.
I wanted to let go of the expectations and standards that had confined me for so long.
Now, I stand on the precipice of the same song because it’s time to let go. It’s time to scream my heart out. It’s time to find me again.
Simple word. BIG issues.
Finding yourself even at the best times in life is difficult. Finding yourself after a breakup is refreshing but also an obstacle course.
I am in the process of redefining me. It’s different. Hard. Special. Weird.
So me as a teacher. Who is that? What purpose do I serve by being a teacher?
I think that everywhere you teach, it’s a different atmosphere. A different purpose. When I was at my first school, my purpose was clear. I was a constant figure for them. I never wavered. I made history fun for them.
Now, I find it harder because the public school system doesn’t seem to allow for that type of bond with your students. Do I love my students? For the most part. Do they drive me crazy? Almost always.
I think that with all the craziness that is public education, I think the most important thing for us as teachers to realize is that consistency and discipline are necessary. And later on, these students will realize why we were hard on them. Why we pushed them further than they thought they could.
You have a purpose as a teacher. God did not call you to be something you weren’t meant to be. I know that, even as I prepare to leave public school for a little while. I know my time was well spent. I don’t regret it.
Find your purpose. Find yourself. There’s only one you. Be it.